More third house musings brought to you by Pholus screenshows.. seems to me l am getting the works from this hard working centaur. He’s all about revelation, transformation and the revealing of hidden knowledge, especially the deeply repressed ancestral type.

Currently he showing me reels of my own third house cusp and all ancestral patterns l am to nail down and subsequently break, release, forgive, surrender, fuck don’t care as long as byeeeeee. He’s sat on my third house cusp degree.

So we know it’s sibs, aunts, uncles, cousins, so here we go.

Many years ago l ordered some new windows and who would show up to fit them but a long lost cousin on late fathers side. Turns out he asked me for cash as he was embroiled in a bitter dispute over child maintenance (Scorpio) with his soon to be ex wife.. of course l obliged, l had no idea that this karma would later impact me by my Mercury in Aquarius on the I c, which sits next to Pholus and the Sun.

A few months later l called him for another job on a house and was told his eldest daughter was now living with him and his new young bit. Apparently she had had a strop with her mother (now unsupported) and she had been offered a route out..that girl never saw her mother again, not sure if the passage of time has helped but l doubt it as dad had arrived as her saviour, rather like my own ex had for my own eldest daughter and for the exact same reason at the exact same age.

Right, on mothers side we have another male cousin and likewise he had produced a daughter exactly 40 weeks after his 21st birthday, but no it wasn’t his daughter as that was shameful so she was passed off as the g f previous marriages child.. hmm.. that’s what golden boys do when they can’t bear to disappoint grandads and frigid aunts (mothers sister) as this is not what privately educated school boys do is it?

So repressed she was, she saw her gran, my aunt but my aunt to this day does not know this child is her first grandchild. Oh the shame, it was to much.

The other reason she was hidden apart from the family shame was that the csa at the time was getting mothers off benefits by hammering the fathers with ridiculous amounts of money they were calling child maintenance.

It was therefore agreed that the mother would stay on benefit and say dad was abroad so out of jurisdiction.. so cash was utilised and that daughter although hidden was spoilt directly by daddy. Many years later and l am not party to the reason but her and her mother became embroiled in a rift, the father (my cousin) long gone..the same scenario ensued. No more money was to cross hands with the mother as this girl getting towards 18.

When l met her mother six years ago whilst in a shop she told she had not seen her girl for ten years, such was the hatchet job my cousin had done on her.

So far that’s one on each side, one on dads and one on mums and not forgetting the hatchet job l have also been in receipt of.

Thing is scroll on a few more years but staying with the same cousin, he met another woman (we think he’s bi, as a gay second cousin knows his MO from local gay scene)

Neither was this his mothers business. Well he met another bi (woman) , ironically he thought he was “having her over” but she was likewise “having him over” .

The story went like this..she got pregnant, and was not motherly as neither was his mother, my aunt, boys go for one that they are familiar with so course he got a cold one. His wife hated mothering and preferred to be at work so her “friend” moved in with them as “the nanny” . Thing is she looked very manly and when l saw a pic l just knew. It was obs to a Scorpio like me, one look at “her”and my guides dropped a parcel bomb into my 8th house Jupiter in gem, it was all about the cousins sex taboos, sometimes it involved the alimony, the maintenance, the assets..so far it was just the sex taboo’s. Anyways they separated and he kept the child, think probs he was the better parent out the two of them but it was a financial decision me thinks rather like his first girl, this boy child also became estranged from his mother. History repeats as its karma isn’t it.

So at the moment his firstborn child, that girl is to my knowledge still estranged from her mother, (and wider family on both sides) as well as her father as he’s otherwise engaged with the second born child, a son, it’s a shame shes currently got no one in her life and l know her mother loves her deeply and misses her presence daily. This was all put in place by his shame, his inability to be honest in acknowledging her birth into our family, and his Prima Donna status which he was not going to give up.

These stories which l have located in the reality of my life came about because of my chart set up. All things are possible if there’s a route in. Each planet in aspect can bring it as they say.

My Venus is in that third house, so money and love and self worth stories are all tied up with Gemini. As we know there’s a tricky twin isn’t there.

The cusp is in Capricorn and ruler Saturn is in a T square to Jupiter in the 8th and Pluto/ Uranus in the 10th.

So Jupiter will bring knowledge, eventually though as it’s square to Saturn, Mars and Chiron…all in Pisces. Potentially there’s spiritual, Pisces, growth, Jupiter, but before maturity, there’s losses, trauma and karma.

Jupiter in the 8th magnified all stuff ruled by that house.

Child maintenance was an issue for my ex also, despite him paying very little and never being asked for any more. He lived in fear, Saturn, that l might ask. I didn’t as my own Venus was anoretic and retro in that third and l hated asking for money or support (Venus in Capricorn).

So when our daughter had the strop at 15 he swept in as the saviour using my Pisces planets on my behalf. It was an illusion as our daughter was gaslit and alienated from the rest of her family (my side) in exact same way as with both my male cousins had previously done with their eldest firstborns which were both daughters.

A little girls first relationship is with her dad and if he’s acting out of selfishness as mine was with a side helping of revenge then the imprints on these girls love (Venus ) relationships going forwards is impacted most detrimentally.

The fathers in my examples are blissfully unaware about any of the psychological damage they are doing but truthfully l don’t think it would temper their behaviour if they were aware, it’s only ever been about them and what their wants (Venus) were.

So planets in houses can be hijacked as in my case, my wants were not considered as l never got to speak them, third house, no one asked me. When l had left him many years earlier l never blocked him with my cappy cusp on that third from seeing our girls. Neither of them.

You see there are two, there’s the one he ran away with when she rang

him after her strop and then there’s the second one who was abandoned, (she’s Pisces rising) when he took off with his fave, the one he considers brighter , like him ( lol). So Venus in third is also charming, sweet favoured children.

When l was young l uses to feel “second rate”, as my sib, older, cappy, l felt was favoured.

I see now it wasn’t her fault, it was the family karma, as Saturn the third cusp ruler was in the fourth. Mother just found her easier to manage, must have been a pleasure, Venus , as mother’s a Taurus and sis was a good little girl.

Whereas l had a t square!

This second rate feeling manifested itself in my early partnerships. The condition my Venus was in natally impacted self worth and value, my own perception, third house, made me accept breadcrumbs from my “men”.

Sometimes l was the second choice. In one case l was the girlfriend but there was another unavailable girl who that boy preferred but couldn’t get.

Of course l took collateral damage as l had chosen to engage and not pass on by.

There was another guy who had a catholic girlfriend (that’s jupe in my 8th) she was a good girl as she was waiting to be married before having sex, but that scenario didn’t matter to him as he had me..hmm.

I provided him wat was missing, and that’s keys in nicely to my former life as Bella, who was a lady of the night. Which is why in this following on life my Venus condition is as it is. I had sold it in that life using that third house for commerce.

So all these stories are coming up now, the lights being shone on by Pholus, he’s sat on the cusp and dredging the house of anything that’s in there that’s not for my highest good. I’m all ears, keep it coming..