Many years ago now l met a clairvoyant at a local psychic fayre.

Just 18 at the time and had poled up with my mate who was a year older than me at 19.

Neither one of us knew any astro back then and never knew we were on our “lunar nodal” cycle whereby the karma that was laid into our birth charts was getting its first pass then.

He had taped that reading and l had gone ooh and ahh a few times but after that l had mislaid the tape. Upon finding it five years later l was utterly gobsmacked as it was my retrospective life story with a detailed catalogue of my many fuck ups from the now 23 year old.

So l re booked and was gobsmacked yet again. We stayed in touch as my life was a roller coaster with Uranus conjunct Pluto in the notable tenth house square to Jupiter in Gemini in the 8th and opposed by Saturn Chiron Juno and Mars in the fourth house. That T square configuration l believe is karmic and is / was put there so whilst living this life l was both able to accrue karma but also pay back old karma where l was “my own great grandmother” as what l owed was hers and what l had put out when l was she l was now reaping the residues from the children of hers, her daughter my gran and her grandson being my dad.. so wat a great ruse, l get called back to the same line to “make amends” as best l can for my many fuck ups.. well that’s me, innit.

So as my great gran Bella, she had married Ernest a lying fantasist, narcissist. She did this as she was pregnant. I believe he was his mother’s fave, the golden child. So their first child was born and a girl called Elsie. Then a boy born a year later, that was revered as back then boys were valued as they could make a parent proud whereas girls cooked and cleaned, during that pregnancy at 8 months that two year old boy child died. A month later gerty was born, she had the audacity to be born a girl and was not welcome as the parents (me as well as narc Ernest) were grieving. (a boy)

He never really recovered and seven years later was sent to Cane hill asylum , allegedly insane.

So Gerty via umbilicus received “discrimination“ as she was female, she received grief, loss, poverty, sickness , she got a right concoction from her grieving mother.

Bella, as an uneducated woman was now a single mother who needed to pay the rent , feed and clothe the family all by herself.

I had told everyone that Ernest had died as no one could visit him anyway and he was never coming out. Nevertheless he was released in 1933 after being inside for 18 years, that’s a lunar nodal again, innit.

So insane he wasn’t. The ancestry records show after his release he lived in Peckham with his sister for nine years before passing away from t b.

That’s a half lunar nodal cycle!

Anyway my story of this notable past life sits within my current chart as Kat.

I had become a lady of the night , with my Leo mid heaven, a sex worker yes. Pluto in the tenth is in that house and sexual taboo, prostitution, criminality are Pluto.  In this life that combo is my intuitive Uranus that uses Astro to unpick ancestral, Pluto residues. The square to Jupiter in the 8th, that pregnancy killed me, l was expanding but l couldn’t as l was already up against it as a “widow” on the census with two children and head of the household. I had died whilst having an abortion.

The death records corroborated this. The death record shows aesthenia which is bleeding out.

Many years ago l read a book about meta genealogy and the writer had noted that this “cause“ was how they recorded death by back street abortion. As that can’t be put on the official documents.

In this life l had met many moons in my 11th, friends that were female, usually l was put in place just prior to them either aborting, miscarrying or needing counselling for I v f failures as they were infertile, moon, or something of that nature.

That  friend at 19 was the first one, her own mom, moon, had became pregnant at the same age and it was a rinse and repeat, this time she had received her mothers unfulfilled desires, which was to get rid.

I nursed her, moon, as her friend in my own 11 th house, whilst she did the deed.

So this is how it works.

Her and her mother never got on, l suggest her mother felt trapped, Uranus’s house being the 11th and regretted her loss of freedom. Her sister was born 11 years later when her mother was on Saturn return.

Since then there’s been numerous examples. The women were usually Leo’s, the sign on my midheaven and that one and another one since were both hairdressers, Leo.

That Pluto of mine is in that tenth house. I was there to counsel and to help them grieve.

Even women l meet online and do astro for have had the moon issues l described above. Every one. I had trained at one point in this life as an aromatherapist. Pluto is in virgo and my Venus in my third is in cappy, sign of business and trining the libra moon in 11th.

Libra moon is on zaniah, star of harlots😭😭😭😭

It’s all there.

So the women l was massaging in my business were on I v f . They would tell me stories about needing to relax in order to conceive… they didn’t, nevertheless l supplied them a blend of oils, old remedy for blocked tubes, cappy cusp remember, and sure enough three babies were subsequently born.

It seems to me that because of my past life trauma written in my chart this time around that l could bring healing for them. Using my Pluto Uranus in the tenth.

That Venus in my third was the senses, touch being massage, smells being essential oils, this was the the third house, the hands being Gemini and the service l provided likewise. Last time around l had sold my body, for a pittance, Venus, due to state of my natal Venus, anaretic and retro. Self worth was impacted and Capricorn on the cusp meant the work was hard, tiring, testing, with the ruler Saturn in my chart sat with Chiron Mars and opposite Pluto it brought much danger, with a side serving of Uranus it was partly to do with the joint shared responsibilities with the mentally unstable/ violent partner. Not just the punters! 

I had a few notable past lives over the years initially coming in via the guy l met at 18.. and all of them sit in this current chart.

How does that happen?

Furthermore astrologically speaking they all are described in great detail.

One life l was a balloon seller in Hamburg, l loved children, but died at 50 (Chiron sits next to Saturn in 4th) unfulfilled, as l had never had a child, there were losses. I had had an accident (Saturn conjunct Mars in Pisces and in the fourth house, mars with Aries ruling 6th house of health ) .

I had been kicked in the ovary by a horse, (Jupiter in the 8th being a horse, in square to Saturn Mars Chiron as part of a T square). My reproductive system damaged. My clairvoyant friend had asked me if l ever got a pain in my ovary on that side, to which l answered l did, it was intermittent.

A few times l had wondered if it was the you know what but after that days session l never once suffered that random pain again. It’s like it got healed as we shone a light on it and it left.. 

ln another life l had been male, “a gladiator” it was a death by lions, Leo on the midheaven, l was the spectacle, the entertainment, Leo, and l was chosen supposedly because of my wrong “religion “. That be Jupiter, in the 8th as the bringer of a sudden death (Uranus Pluto) in my tenth.

But weirdly this one was a lie, l was able under past life regression to look round the arena to see if l knew anyone, and sure enough l saw my second daughter in this life, she was my love, trouble was the emperor (who was the same soul we know as Ernest- yes him again!) had designs on her and wanted me out the way, so religion was the excuse given. After my death she was forced, Pluto, to marry him and likewise she had a meaningless existence from that point onwards. l had passed quickly with insurmountable fear, Saturn, who sits opposite Pluto and in this life. This life l suffered from agoraphobia. I felt all the fear, the pain in this life from that one as l had not had time, Saturn, to retrieve all my soul parts before my sudden traumatic exit.

When l saw this life played out in my now open pineal l felt much peace as l now understood myself so much better. Being able to grieve, accept things and move on.

Another life was a drowning, with Neptune in Scorpio in my first house, l was a slave, bought and paid for, not many details on this one only that whilst travelling by ship to a far off land, Jupiter in 8th , (inconjunct between nep in Scorpio and jupe in gem a deg off exact) the ship was going down. I was shackled by the ankle, Saturn , (opposite Pluto) and this time the large mammal (Jupiter) was not a horse but a black bear. He was like me, shackled and caged in the hold where l was.

As we drowned we stared into each others eyes and gave each other support, Saturn, as best we could.

I have had many lives as a slave,  this is the down side of a Pisces stellium but on the positive side it makes a great healer, psychic, soul midwife and medium.

One more notable is this.

I had married the nutter Ernest and had two daughters, in this life we met again and although we did not marry we did have two daughters, two years apart , just the same. These two were the same two souls we created in the past life, which Ernest and Bella “shared”. I was to be a better mother in this life than  l was in that one and it was the same for him. The bar was set pretty low for both of us really and despite me leaving him in this life when the firstborn was just two and l was pregnant with the second girl l believe l have done that.

The second born girl, Gerty, received a lot via umbilicus just as she did in that last scenario in the former life, only this time around l did not want a particular gender of child, it just didn’t matter, although l do believe the father wanted boys…as he did before. He was an absolute tyrant whilst l was pregnant, the environment, moon in 11th, was unstable just the same as l described.

I was determined to l was not  having an only child and l was gone at 18 weeks.

He did not look back and two weeks after l left him in my house. (mental). His secretary moved in and that explained why he had been so cold.

They married before l had given birth to our second daughter.

Those two girls became my world, l educated myself in aromatherapy and passed exams in a flexible college. My business was thriving when nearly four years later l met my current husband.

Turns out we had met before, back in the Bella/ Ernest life in Bristol in 1900 when l had worked the streets.

He was the local policeman, he would arrest me and keep me overnight. Using his Saturn Venus in Taurus conjunction in his second house, to feed me a good meal, l got a warm bed and he in his mind had “kept me safe”.

Thing is l had earned nothing and got battered on my return home to my abusive, mentally unstable husband. 

Our girls had had to deal with him on their own so this caused more ills.

Nevertheless that policeman always loved me for l had “spirit”.

So we met again, l know more on this story, many details have come in over the years to do with how Ernest got to be put away. 

The census corroborates the character he had, the dates of admission, release etc tie into his natal chart as Ernest and as you would expect the also tie into Bella’s and the two daughters aforementioned. 

I returned to the same ancestral lineage as l had to receive what l had put out earlier on as Bella. That being favouritism, wanting boys over and above the girls. Having a scapegoated ( potentially) child as they were not favoured and golden. My dad had been the recipient of scapegoat/ unfavoured child as his mother, Gerty had been the unfavoured girl. She had received a lot both via umbilicus but also her lived experience.

That’s why she hated her boy twin. As Gertys mother, it was me, Bella, who had a suicided father in this life as Kat as what l put out to Gerty as her biased mother l had to experience why/ how dad came to choose death over life..

This is how this works.